Psst, the title got inspired from Melanie Martinez's song. Go search on youtube if you want to.

  Assalamualaikum lovelies. How's life? If you're being suffered with fake friends so let's read this out. If you dont feel suffer or dont care at all also read it too. Maybe you have some things to add or to share with me. Lol.

  Believe it or not, we're all must have that one friend yang acah baik, sayang kita lebih dari segalanya konon but actually jeles dan dengki dengan kita dalam diam. Ada sampai just nak pergunakan kita untuk kebaikkan dia yang tak baik pun actually! Kadang kita pun tak faham apa yang mereka nak dengki sangat sebab kita tak faham dan tak nampak apa kelebihan diri kita. If you see it than you're savage and Im respect you.

  Izzati ada nak share tentang one of my lunchbox friend. I knew her when I was 14 and that time, we're destined to be in the same class.

  Dia yang tegur izzati dulu. Izzati ni jenis pemalu dan tak banyak cakap so yahh, mostly ppl yang kena tegur, cakap baru izzati ok. Izzati pulak jenis kalau alone pun tak apa. Maybe ppl tell me that Im weird but it's not actually cuz im an introvert too so i dont care whether i have friends or not. Tapi tak adalah sombong.

   Kalau nak kawan it's okay dan kalau tak nak kawan pun tak apa. Izzati tak adalah anti-social macam dalam movie-movie yang jenis tengok orang semacam, mata lebam,  apa semua tu. That's what we called emo. Im not emo. Im a happy person too but a little shy. I do smile a lot and laughing too. So, don't misunderstand me.


So, izzati pun mula la kawan dengan dia. Rapat dengan dia. Dia ni jenis ceria la. Banyak mulut, banyak story. Kalau satu hari tu, mesti ada ja benda yang dia nak story and im okay with that la cuz izzati tak tau nak cakap apa, nak story apa. Hehehe. So, jadi pendengar ja la. But sometimes, izzati pun ada jugak story. Tak adalah gila sampai nak diam sepanjang hayat ni. Kalau datang mood story teller tu pun kadang-kala ppl tell me to shut up too. Hihihi.

  And sampai we reach form 4. (16 y/o) Kami duduk lain-lain kelas. Dia masuk aliran akaun and izzati dapat tasawwur and seni cuz izzati kalau bab math memang ke laut. So, we dont talk too much dah la, susah kan nak jumpa. Kalau ada chance pun kami jumpa time recess and balik ja.

  She used to always visit me at my house sampai satu masa tu time tengah malam pun dia nak datang but my mama told me to not izinkan cuz we need some privacy too. Bukannya apa, macam annoying jugala kalau sampai ke situ cuz nothing important pun. Jadi, izzati pun cakap ajala elok-elok. Dia selalu jugak call and kadang tu sampai almost sejam dia suka story macam-macam. Kadang-kala tu sampai kena acah telefon rosak. Buat bunyi line tak clear then tutup phone. (dont need to tell, i know im creative on creating reasons.) Sometimes dia call pun izzati tak sanggup nak pick it up. Im too scared. Yela, berjam-jam bergayut. I got life too. (i know im a boring person :( )

  One day, I got a flu. She calls me but im not pick it up. Izzati letih sangat and tak ada mood nak sembang dengan sesiapa. Izzati pulak kalau jenis demam memang tak on phone langsung. Kerja duduk atas katil and tidur ja. Everyone in my house know that and they understand.

  Then, she calls through my mama's phone. My mama told her that Im sick and still she wanna visit me sebab dia cakap dia nak tengok izzati. Then my mama told me that she want to see me and terpaksa juga la izzati bangun even dah letih tahap gila! Im helping my mama cooking juga time tu sebab kesian tengok mama buat kerja seorang. Kalau dia tak mai memang tak masak time tu. Lol.

  And then I saw her and her mom in front of my house. I dunno what is she talking with her mom but Im kinda feel something bad will happens soon. Izzati tryla ajak dia dengan mak dia masuk but her mom tengok izzati semacam. Im like, what? Then she told me to go in first so okay, I go.

  Sampaila satu tahap punya lama. My mama pula go out and terus ajak dua beranak tu masuk. Almost sejam gakla. Then baru tau yang dia dengan mak dia tuh tengah arguing about something. Bila mak dia masuk ja rumah, her mom said "Kawan baik mestilah tau apa yang kawan dia buat kan?" Im poker face. Sumpah tak tahu apa.

  Then her mom story everything to both of us and finally I got it. My friend actually come to my house just to go out with her boyfriend. She use my house as an escape places. Im so angry that time cuz i know nothing. Her mom tu memang strict and that's why she did that. Im so disappointed and angry at the same time! Really! Then my mama back me up told her mom that Im not guilty. Izzati teraniaya! Izzati tak pernah ajar dia pun buat benda-benda macam tu. Im so sad to know that's not her first time tho. So, I be like...so selama ni datang tak ikhlas and just want to go out witj your boyfie?? Are you kidding me, bruh?!?!?!?

  I know im boring tapi tak payahlah pergunakan izzati sampai macam ni! Remember, I got feelings too! It's not good to do that to ppl! If you are, I bet stop doing that! Plss!! Izzati pun ada a plenty of friends besides her but they never did that to me and still treat me nicely. It's a bless.

  Then, after that, kepercayaan izzati pada most ppl menurun mendadak. Then, she's moving to another school atas dasar masalah attendance dia kot kalau tak silap and we never met till now. Tak jumpa pun tak apalah kalau perangai dah macam apa. Haihh. Im so doneee!! Kalau macam ni jenis member, nak buat lunchbox friend pun izzati tak sudi. Hoping after this I wont met this kind of ppl dah. My mama so angry and told me to beware after this. She just want to use me. So after this, beware!! Jangan baik sangat!



  Tujuan izzati tulis entri ni bukan sebab nak bukak aib atau apa-apa. Memang tak secara jujur. Im not mentioning her name tho. Just pengajaran untuk jangan trust ppl easily. Even family sendiri boleh buat kita, apatah lagi orang luar kan? Orang buat baik, kita buat baik, orang buat jahat, kita blah!! Haha, that's my motto.

   Kalau dah mula nampak tanda-tanda awal maybe dia akan stab us in the back than beware supaya tidak menyesal. Im not regret actually for met her cuz she did teach me something. Like some ppl maybe come into your life to join you make this life brighter and there's some ppl will come into your life just to teach you something and then leave. So, yahh, kalau ada chance jumpa dia, I would love to thanked her at least once.

  Well, that's it! Till we meet again! Izzati roger and out. Pls take care. Love yaa!!

P/S: Everyone make mistakes and actually im ready enough to forgive. Hopefully she'll change and wont do this to others. InsyaAllah. May all ouf us out from this lunchbox's friends list too.

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