Assalamualaikum and hi. It's been long since zaty menulis. Berhabuk sudah blog zaty ni bahahahaha. 

   Well, how many chapters did I missed and zaty dont even know how and where to start but apa yang zaty boleh simplify, life mula-mula attack zaty sampai terduduk then I am rewarded with something much beautiful.

   Ada satu fasa tu, zaty cant even tadah tangan berdoa dekat Allah, can't even talk or speak about my feelings to Him sebab wallahi, sakit and hopeless sangat. But deep down inside, zaty masih berharap semoga Dia dengar hati zaty. I was at literally my breaking and lowest point but alhamdulillah, zaty jumpa hope and jalan zaty dipermudahkan. And yeayyy I am feeling much better now, alhamdulillah. 

   Just wanna let you know, my life literally changed drastically. Not in a bad way of course. I mean, the things I thought was meant for me literally walk away from me and the most amazing things of it is that, zaty tak rasa lost pun. I mean, I just watch it go, accept it and keep on going. Maybe because it's just there to teach me or show me something and not meant to stay? Everything happened by Allah's will kan? 

   Things that dont want to choose or stay with you while you are at your ugliest state of mind was not meant to stay. And zaty bersyukur they actually did leave cuz I dont want to settle with people that expect me to please them while during at that phase, you cant even speak to Allah on how lost you were other than staring at the wall and expecting everything to just be okay again. They are just not your people, your things, your souls. So, let them leave. Let them call, repost or assume you every evils things they can think of and may our path never crossed again. I could never be with someone that willing to let go when things goes hard because life aint all sunshine and butterflies. 

   This one stranger told me this. 

In order to enter a new and more beautiful life, you will surely feel that everything is falling apart now. Issa process and trust me, one day you will look back and said "Damn, I indeed needed that." 

   And trust me, I was like wow. Because it's so true. I indeed at that time felt like my life was messy but now I am really thankful that those shits happened. I am right where I want to be now. 

   Well, what for now? I dont even know. But I just want to keep it all lowkey and more secure. Gotta truly redesign my brain and do my stuffs. Be sweet to everyone and just get it all together. I'm too full of life to lay in bed, crying and asking myself why I am the way I am. Nobody deserve to feel that way. 

   Just wanna let you guys know, Im currently doing my internships now. Everything is in a good tracks for now and Im feeling better. :D

   Will update more if I get energy to write bahahaha. See you when I see you. Bye.